So today is a better day than yesterday. My insensitive husband was driving me insane (men are idiots) & Arden was extra hyper & tore through the house like the Tazmanian devil. That added to the fact that my monthly gift had come early, bringing along with it abdomen cramps, back-pain, headaches, nausea, and a sour disposition...well...I was just plain down & out yesterday.
Today is a new day and it is already looking up. I've decided to stay away from FB for a bit. That, in the past, has seemed a difficult feat to accomplish. i'm a bit addicted to FB. But I can see where the site has a negative affect on me. For instance, if I post something about my new business venture and barely anyone says anything about it, especially people I see all the time, I get angry. Especially when those same people support others who have a business and always compliments their work. Or, say I mention a cute thing Arden has done or said to me that day and the comments are null and void. Then I see another person in my set has posted that their child is soooooo cute because they breathed or something, and all of the same friends that said nothing to my post click the 'Like' button a million times and gush over 'how sweet!' it is. Seriously??? Am I back in High School, where only the popular people got any attention and the poor non-entities who failed to pass the popularity test are ostracized & ignored??? I sincerely hope not since most of the people I engage myself with are supposed to be Christians and therefore, should walk in love towards ALL men, not just the ones they deem fit.
In lieu of my strong feelings (which may be attributed to my lovely cramps & nausea), I've decided to walk away for a couple of days from FB. Maybe I'll take an extended hiatus. To me, its just not worth it feeling angry at people because they aren't e-cordial. I also tend to reveal too much of my inner feelings via my Notes section or my post updates. If I'm depressed, I write that I'm depressed. If I'm angry or upset, I post songs from youtube that reflect my mood. But do I really ( I mean, REALLY) want these people who don't even care if I live or die, go to Heaven or Hell...do I really want them knowing my personal business? Because whether I explain WHY I feel the way I do, I'm still telling them that I'm not happy with my life. That is none of their business. Negative or melancholy posts only alert them to start gossiping about what your issues may be. I have learned that people would much rather see you sad than happy. When I write about a new article I've written on ezinearticles.com or that we're fixing up the house or how God has Blessed me in some way, do you know how many 'LIKE"s I get on my page? Let me put it to ya this way...you can hear the crickets chirping...loudly.
In the end (and the beginning), the only one who can save us is Christ. Being a Christian isn't easy in this life, but I couldn't be anything else. I love The Lord and I know, even in those sad depressing times, that He will deliver me from my troubles. It may not happen when I want it to (it rarely does), but it Will happen when its time. Thats how God operates. In the meantime, I think I'll leave the phony e-friends alone for a spell. I'll probably even step back from the phony 'real' friends, as well. I just don't see the point in trying to cultivate relationships with those who can't even be bothered to click "LIKE" on my FB page. Apparently, they wouldn't click "LIKE" on me, if I had a button. Who knows & who cares? All I care about is that God pushed my "LOVE" button a long time ago when I made Him Lord & Savior of my life...and thats all that really matters. ;-)
~Empressya
Friday, February 25, 2011
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